As in, I’m in a funk and I need to get out of it. I know most of the reason is total sadness about Brian, the feeling of such a loss. Concern for my sister and wishing I could take away her pain, although I know I can’t. I have felt 100% unmotivated since getting home from vacation.
And, today, Scuba Man had to go to Dallas for business, until Friday night.
I guess it’s because of this mood I’ve been in, but I almost lost it this morning when I said good-bye to him. That’s not my normal reaction. Usually, I look forward to having a few days alone. This trip, I didn’t want him to go. I want him to be here, right now. Not for anything special, I just wish he were here. His presence is a comfort to me. Love does that to you!
So, I’m facing this evening alone and unmotivated. Too unmotivated to even want to go to the store for Haagan-Daz ice cream! That’s probably a good thing though. Comfort eating isn’t the answer. I’ll just concentrate on telling myself tomorrow will be better, and just veg until then.